root line

Realized

szadek — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 03:40:03 +0000

It hurts me when i feel so dumb

i went thru it and now i got burned

i realize iam so dead and numb

and i am so deeply fucked

and nobody can save me from the pain …

so come and take this rock on my heart

is so heavy that i can not even breath

climb on my chest and kiss me for just one more time

just one more time so i can see my savior

i choose you

i just keep hanging with the knives

it cuts me me and tear each others lives

apart from the perfection

and i look back and i don’t see my reflection

and nobody can save me from this pain …

so come and bleed on me your heart

is so fresh that i can not suffocate

climb on my chest and hold me for just one more time

just one more time so i can see my salvation

from death i choose you

Irresponsable and uncontrollable

szadek — Mon, 10 Dec 2007 02:22:30 +0000

All the lights are off and i am blind for everything your rain can say

they shock me against a pretty wall and turn black one more day

i am a zero and you knew it know its to late to change , no more cry

accept this tired skeleton or just stab my heart and make me die

i don’t and never wanted to belong to somewhere , some place

every time i tried to be different i just fallen on self-induced disgrace

i am not planning to be better , i’m not here to win a fucking race

accept me like i am , and what i can give , and don’t cut my name and face …

all make me numb

i am such a dumb

i am such a point to succumb

on your infected tumb

i regret by just my breath

i regret by loosing my faith

on me , on you , on everything

surrounding my head

Fragancia nocturna

szadek — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 06:04:46 +0000

Um abraço quente e tenue

um beijo de mil folhas ofegante

vindo do ser que te acolhe imensamente

num fechar de olhos livremente

o envio tao energicamente

com amor que ferozmente

te invade a alma e a mente

eu nunca partirei

a minha paixao te deixarei

contigo serei sempre um rei

e com a mais bela das rainhas reinarei

neste mundo eu sempre te amei

e nos proximos para sempre continuarei

acorda hoje com um eterno sorriso

e que por ai permaneça

que seja um iluminado aviso

de que tudo de bom nos aconteça

You made what i am

szadek — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 04:46:35 +0000

All you could say today , all you could go deeper
so i couldnt ignore that precious state of mind
all that pictures you could hide
they all are something i wish i couldnt remind

I am so determined to change this lie , forgot all the past and get a new life

i am so desgusted i cant change this pain painted on this hell surrounding me

i am searching for the answers , all it seems like i cant survive …

another alone fight against this self picture of mine

i cant get again all of this along

all i could say is i’m always wrong

i say it on this revealing song

until the fire stops on my tongue

all the unstoppable pressure you get on me

reserve some space to me so i could be

all the injury you carve on me and you cant see ?

you just made what i am , you cant disagree

my tears fall like rain ,no much to pick from the drain

where all our lives are together in the same fucking hell

wish you could remove me from this solitaire pain

i hide so deeply inside this empty closed shell

Painful lies

szadek — Sun, 02 Dec 2007 00:21:54 +0000

Life once lost and lost again
painful lies surrounding my mind
all the colors of feelings I couldnt drain
blind my eyes for something I cant find

the facility to fall on disgrace
is you my support and you are down like me
its your soul I always wanted to embrace
but I always loose the sense , I cant be

this removed soul from the right way
its not my fault , its just my problem
I wish I could die , reset all the play
resurrect from the underground and make you pay

well im sick of your discussion , im sick of everything you do
I want you to change , I can change too
my pain is leading me to disgrace , dont make me feel like a fool
like a fool I always been … for you

Loneliness

szadek — Sun, 02 Dec 2007 00:13:42 +0000

// Today i am burned inside // i have an inch in my soul // and i am so aside // that i cant be such a fool // i wished you called me // called me so i could remember // why i am alive // i dont feel so much // such a long time // and i am so tired // so tired of beeing here // all alone // i resumed my life // all i needed was only a bunch of seconds // and a mirror so i could broke my face on it // forgive me if i am wrong // i always do // the bad things but i have only one thing // im sure of it // i only wish that you called me // but now i remember // i was sleeping all along // i was dying on your floor // i was not prepared for this // for you // for you // for everything you do // all alone // i resumed my life // all i needed was you // all i needed was only a bunch of seconds from you // forgive me if i am right // i never did it before // such a good things i wished that i did // i am so sure of it … //

Driven under the hands of the apocalypse

szadek — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 03:54:27 +0000

Some kind of abbused feeling , altered and canonacly explained
nothing left for the self-righteous bipolar man on the shoulder
not forever lost on the non-sense and black color sick drained
my last hope is that the level of the wine dont finish until i’m erased

Hunter’s are all over these veins full of sancticity , not so miserable
You’ll buried my heart under sand and i can’t explain the reason why
such a blamed soul , damn god , whould it exist and help me try
redefine my contradictions on this storm somehow i’ve been disabled

Driven under the hands of the apocalypse
liers are all over the place and i’ve
drowned myself on a bottle of wine
agains’t all the universe i design a disastereous synopse

All this chains that lock the uncntrolable mind
increasing the dont know what or how to
forever down and lost to no one find
my eyes dont need to seem , on the mirror , im like you too

My illusion is over

szadek — Fri, 23 Nov 2007 11:22:04 +0000

the blackening eyes stormed the river where you found all of your lies
you got bored with my boredom , too hard to really realize
how we went so deep on the void , waken up by the beep of the flies
consuming our breath and soul wasted on the disgrace of the selfish prize

Beeing along with these empty hands , raping this skin , a prison like i see
imposture you are for make me feel pain with your tears , they don’t fill my brain
that i assure you , for the million time , i wouldn’t forget it even if i defee
maybe you could push me and throw me away again … against the volcano train

theres nothing you could say now ,the fire burned all my sensibility
i lost my taste and theres not enough flesh to make me feel again
i would die empty , miserable , wasted on your pretty facility
just grab your teeth along my arm and suck it until it finishes , from my vein

The sun is over on my deviance , my illusion is over , there is no longer pain
i parted away from the room where all the miserable succumb
i’m light storming your lands now , remember my name when theres nothing to drain
don’t visit me now , leave the flowers at home , i’m peaceful now on my thumb